Third Time's A Charm: Why It's Time To Go To Thailand

Why I’m going to Thailand…alone.

My last abroad experience was a great one. I went to Stockholm and Barcelona with my boyfriend at the time. The trip was filled with love, history, family, and meticulous planning. A little bit more than a year goes by and we are still going strong. Since my ex was from Sweden, while I was there, I got to spend a lot of time with his parents, whom I loved. They decided to invite me to go to Thailand with them and my boyfriend over the holidays. Thailand has ALWAYS been my number one travel destination… so of course I said yes! Note: this crew likes to travel in style, so I chalked over quite a lot of money for hotels and airfare (I was also going to stop in Sweden before heading to Thailand). A few months after the trip was booked…my boyfriend and I broke up. On top of an extremely difficult breakup, it also cost me close to $1,400 to cancel the trip.

Fast-forward a year. I started seeing someone who loves to travel, but more in a down-to-Earth way. He backpacks and likes to travel more on a budget (aka more of my style). After quickly falling for each other, he shares that he is planning to go on this amazing trip to Thailand, India, and Australia next summer… he wants me to come with him. How do I say no? However, this time I was smarter and didn’t lay down any money. Lesson learned: don’t book a flight that far in advance with a significant other unless you’re married to them! Lucky for me I didn’t. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out with us because of long-distance and we decided to stay friends. However, the “just friends” aspect of our relationship got me booted from the trip.

So let me recap: two men, two relationships, two offers to Thailand, two yeses, two breakups, and $1,400 later and I still haven’t been to Thailand. Ok, well fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. THAT’S IT!

If/when I go to Thailand, I’m going on my own.

I find myself Googling Thailand and reading blog after blog about solo-female backpackers at 3am in the middle of the night. I’m in a very interesting spot in my life. I’m cramming to graduate early, I’ve had a very untraditional college experience with many highs and lows, I’m on the brink of launching my first business, and I’m about to enter the real world…and to be honest, I am so overwhelmed. I want to run from all of it. Which, I never do. I have always faced every single challenge in my life head on, full force, head held high. So, why can’t I do the same with this new chapter in my life? For starters, I really don’t want to. Why can’t it be that simple? Why is that such a sin? I want to escape reality for a little bit longer.

So there it is. I have some money saved up and I own a car. For the first time in my life, I’m going to be irresponsible: I’m going to sell my car, and spent all of my savings on a trip to South East Asia. It terrifies me to think that when I get back, I’ll be broke, with no career lined up (I’ll talk more about that in another blog post). But, I think I need to do this for my soul.

I try to live my life by this mantra: balance between mind, body, and soul. Four years ago I lived in Israel for about three months. That trip fed my soul completely. But recently, I’ve been feeling somewhat lost and empty. After going through an extremely emotional two years, I feel drained. I think going to one of the most spiritually sound places in the world will help me get in touch with my soul again. After being on track to get a bachelors of science in Business Management (focused in entrepreneurship) and another major in Ethics and Social Responsibility, my mind is active and fed. For the past four years, I’ve worked to keep my body healthy by learning about exercise and cooking. But, my soul is hungry and deprived. I need this trip to rebalance myself.

This is my journey. And while the destinations are not set in stone, I have decided that I’m going to take an extended trip, with no return ticket, by myself.

Thailand, Laos, Vietnam, Indonesia (China? Myanmar?) I’m coming for you.